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alterfebe
31 March 2010 @ 01:02 pm
     Wow, the last two days at work have really taught me how inferior I am. Not good. Who likes to feel that way? Maybe I should suffice myself in saying that this is a learning process and I'm taking notes. The only thing is, this seems to be a self-taught class which just in turn means that it takes a little while longer. Today went by so much better than yesterday, and I'm hoping that tomorrow will bring even better results.
     I had come home today, and I guess I just thought to make today an animal one. I fed all my animals just as soon as I entered the house. Well, that's typical, but then I gave my dog a bath which led to me giving my cat a bath. Afterward, I tried to let my cockatiels out to play on my shoulder. Weird thing is, they acted differently. Kaoru came out like she usually does and hoped on my shoulder, but Hikaru decided that he was scared of my hand and kept running away, practically killing himself in the process. When I finally got him on my hand (they don't bite) he took flight all over the house making me track him down from one side of it to the other. Luckily, he got tired eventually and just let me pick him up. I cooed lovingly at him and gave him kisses, but then Kaoru decided she didn't like my hands, either! They both hung out on my shoulder for awhile but when I went to put them down...yup. They didn't want my hand near them. I gave them a treat for their spastic allowance and will try this all over again soon. If a time comes where I can't handle an animal anymore (due to it going wild, etc), is there really a point in keeping it?

     The last week has been interesting. My brothers and sister have vacated the house in order to stay with mom and "help" clean up the new store. Meanwhile, it's just been me and my father. I have to say, the last two days I've basically spent with a friend, coming home to make dinner and essentially just go to bed. I'm proud in the fact that I've made some pretty good stuff, like the creamy spinach that I'd made with one dinner and the fresh beets that I made with another. It's been pretty awesome.
     I've been pretty excited, too, because of Ben going back to Camp Lejeune. That means we'll be able to talk again. But, you know, he should have been back from Bragg already, since Drew came back a couple days ago. Why haven't I heard from Ben then? I have never felt really secure in my relationship to handle not staying in contact. This way, things really do feel so very distant. I always imagined, since he joined the military, that his last couple months there would be our most loving. I mean, this step is a great big step back into civilian life and our real relationship...so why do I feel like he's distancing himself from me?
 
 
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alterfebe
22 March 2010 @ 06:03 pm
I wanted to keep these two Monday posts separate, so I'm sorry to post twice, but hey.

Like I mentioned previously I did have that interview today with MCT and it was not a bad experience. This is impressive for me, though, since I usually blotch out all over my body and have my mind turn blank. Believe me, it doesn't look so good to potential employers. I was nervous, of course, but I got through the interview being able to keep a clear head and answer all of their questions and add some humor here and there. I believe I blundered in an area or two but perhaps covered it up well enough. I know that many of my points must have ran home, however, when I was asking them my questions and they echoed some of the values and points that I spoke about just before.

I think of it this way, what happens, happens at this point. I did the best that I have ever done and I am proud of myself. I usually can't say that so I feel confident in myself. If I am not selected, however, I know this time I wont have such hard feelings as I did with the environmental mosquito specialist job I had tried to get in my recent past. This being that I know I put in my best effort. What more could I do?
 
 
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alterfebe
22 March 2010 @ 05:52 pm
Yesterday, I went to Borders to brush up on any interviewing skills that I would need for my interview with Millenium Clinical Trials, in which I went to today at 1pm.

I ran into a book that was all about the interview, where I came across a chapter that really piqued me since I am kinda self-centered. It was about identifying the type of person you are based on the Myers-Briggs Type Inventory. This is who I am according to it:

Introvert - I prefer privacy in order to think things through before talking about them and to view things more from an internal prospective. I am not Extrovert, which is an interactive and involved with others individual who likes having people around. They communicate openly.

Sensing - I depend on the five senses and focuses on what is real and factual. I am not Intuition where the person relies on their 6th sense and uses their hunches and intuition.

Thinking - I rely on the head, using logical system and objective criteria to make decisions. I am not Feeling which is a person who depends on the heart, tending to use values and subjective data to make decisions.

Judging - I am a planful person who likes to regulate and control activities of my life. I am not Perceiver who is spontaneous and adjusts and adapts to activities as they unfold.

This makes me an ISTJ overall: Someone who prefers work that is controlled and requires attention to detail. They function best in environments that emphasize accountability, productivity and fact-based problem solving.

I was teetering on me being an ISFJ though: Someone who prefers work that requires deep commitment and a sense of service. They tend to do well in positions that require a lot of behind-the-scenes work.

Mandy also let me know that I have the Personality Type Color - Green in another evaluation: http://www.my-homebased-business.com/personality-type-color-green.html
 
 
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alterfebe
14 March 2010 @ 01:36 am
Shamrockfest! It was great! Reminded me a bit like Beck with all the trash and rain and stuff, but I had a great time. My sister and I got to see two bands perform: Hot Spur and Roots, and got completely soaked from all the people jumping in puddles and the rain, of coarse. Next time I really think a poncho would be the best idea, though...

I thank my job for the tickets to go and have that experience!
 
 
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alterfebe
01 March 2010 @ 02:35 pm
So, I'm saying that I don't know what I'm doing and I don't know where I'm going. I need guidance. I have so much on my plate I have no idea where to even start. There is the issue of continuing my education, landing a job in my field of study, finding and owning a home and marrying a special (LOVING) man.

All of this I have to figure out by the end of this year. I mean I have to. Literally. Within this seemingly short list is all the underlying nit-picky issues that are time consuming, long and difficult. Anyone doing any one of these would understand what I'm saying.

Now the idea here is not to whine, even though I am bordering it, but to spill my problems on this written ground and pick up the shattered pieces. It's time to put all this together and complete the picture of my future.
 
 
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alterfebe
27 February 2010 @ 12:19 pm
Oh, man! I forgot to mention that I had adopted a kitten on the first of December, didn't I? Yup, after dropping off Ben to Camp LeJeune, we were passing through Prince George's County. It was pretty cool that the GPS we were using at the time led us off course and right next to the shelter there. I thought, hey, why not stretch the legs and peek inside. I was kinda also hoping that maybe I'd see a standard poodle puppy, since I've kinda wanted one, but instead saw the cutest and most docile 14 week old calico kitten. Female, of course (most calico's are). Yup, done deed. She was adopted and on the rest of the trip home, all she did was sit patiently in my lap. She is absolutely the best in a car. She just sits still. I have noticed because she recently got spayed this past Feb. 8th, and she had sat just as still on my lap as she did when I first adopted her.

She stays in my room, and is the biggest lover of a cat I've ever seen. She sleeps right on me or beside me every night and always licks me. I admit it's annoying mostly, but it really is sweet of her. She always has to be the center of attention when I'm near. I should upload a picture of her soon.

Oh, and she has green eyes! How unique!
 
 
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alterfebe
27 February 2010 @ 12:02 pm
Lately it's been all about work and finding more work. Hahaha

Things at my job, for the most part, have been going pretty well. The other day, as an example, I was recognized by Rob as being a hard worker and received two all day passes to Shamrock Fest. Yes, I will go, I thank you. As bad as it sounds...hahaha...It would be the first time that I've ever even gone to a concert/festival. Ahem.

Aside from that confession, I have also been speaking with a nurse that I adore from INOVA Fairfax Hospital, and she's given me some needed inspiration to search for a job in my related field of study. I want to do biomedical research. This is my dream, peeps. I need that foot in the door first, though, and it's proving to be difficult. I have sent in my resume and coverletter to a couple places, so lets hope that it proves to be fruitful. I really hope.
 
 
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alterfebe
02 February 2010 @ 11:31 am
So, my boss pulled me to the side today and reviewed my E.S.T.A. training with me. Even though I was ready, since I knew that this was coming, I felt like an idiot. One minute before he comes and announces that we will review it together I was bragging to my co-workers that I've got it all down. He pops in, "Since I know you've got this how about you go over it with me now?"

Face palm right there.

But HA! I did get it! He was quite impressed. The only thing I have to work on is the explanation of the observation process. I guess Corporate will be here this Friday, so bossman is getting a bit hyper over it.

When I came home from work, however, I find out that my dog is a sneaky...dog. I guess he hasn't really grown out of sneaking into trash cans and left over dinner plates left on coffee tables. Currently, he is still being banished. Maybe I should let him off now...?

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Today I will be going to the gym with Kimi, and I need to look into getting a pass. I want to get in shape even though my body loves to fluctuate so much.
 
 
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alterfebe
01 February 2010 @ 01:58 pm
I took my first paid vacation the week of the Martin Luther King holiday, and I went to Florida. Originally I was supposed to go with Ben and visit Mandy and Rostam at their condo, but Ben couldn't stay the entire week. He only got the weekend through Monday. He was so unprepared, though, that he was only able to get there Sunday afternoon.

We did get to spend all of Monday together. Rostam and Mandy gave Ben and I a tour of Disney World in which we hit all the highlights. I have to say, the most memorable ride was the Tower of Terror. So incredibly thrilling. Our last ride was the Aerosmith ride. Ben, Angel and Rostam went to that ride at the same time Mandy and I went for the Tower of Terror. We got to watch the sun set as our bodies were being thrown up and down. But every now and then, when the elevator doors opened to the outside, right before they closed and we were shot down again, we'd see a glimpse of the sun and the sky being illuminated by pinks, reds and dark blues. Breathtaking in more ways than one.

All that aside, during that whole week I began to grow out my nails again. To this day I haven't done anything traumatic towards them though yesterday I pulled out my Dead Sea Complete Nail Kit Treatment that Ben got me (one of my Christmas presents) and buffed my nails. Now they're really shiny. I guess it helps promote nail growth, so I'm gonna be all over it from now on. I've got many things about myself that I need to work on in the years to come. Especially with the big event coming up.
 
 
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alterfebe
01 January 2010 @ 06:59 pm
My New Years Resolutoion:

New Job

Get In Shape
 
 
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